Clumsy...

I'm not the only clumsy one: Read in the paper today about a guy in Fitzwilliams museum in Cambridge who stumbled on his shoelace and fell. While falling he dragged down some priceless vases from the Qingdynasty... Actually, every time I'm in a museum I keep wondering what would happen if I'd break something. Nothing happened to this guy, apart from the shame and disgrace :)

I just watched the ending of the dumbest TV-show I've ever seen. It's called "7th Heaven" and is about a priests family....all about family values and no sex before marriage and such.
Anyway, it was about Valentines Day celebrations. So I realized that Valentines is coming up soon. Am I supposed to do something for Dr C??? He used to live in the US where Valentines is a huge deal.
I've never celebrated Valentine when I've been in a relationship. Nor did I do the "Bitter Single Woman"- thing and gathered my girls to burn ex-boyfriends stuff and nag about being single.
So what does he expect? I could maybe send flowers to his job. That's always nice and kind of fun or I can take him out to dinner. Or maybe he will take me out...That would be nice.
But what if I do this big thing and he does nothing. How embarrassed wouldn't I be then?!?!

Yhe weekend was very nice. Was out with Hannah on Saturday, just spent the evening catching up at Sturehof.
This Friday we are going to have dinner at Franska Matsalen at the Grand Hotel. It's really expensive but it's probably worth it. It's supposed to be one of the best restaurants in town and they are closing for good by the end of February. Maybe I should ask Dr C to join us. If he comes he will be the only man there :) He'll probably enjoy that...

Take care

Song of the day: A Long Walk - Jill Scott

A good laugh

I do believe you need at least one a day. Have had a few good laughs this last week :) First on Wednesday night when I was having dinner, wine and some very nice talks with Tove at Bistro Jarl. We then went on to Riche for a few drinks.

I realized that 20-something men have turned it into a kind of sport to try to pick up 30-something women. I mean I don't in general mind people trying to pick each other up in bars and nightclubs, not at all actually, but a 20-something guy is not really "my cup of tea"...
Two brothers were after Tove and myself and they kept saying this like "I think you're hot even if you are older" OK, a bit of advice: Few women like to be reminded of their age, especially by someone younger. And no, you won't be getting any by doing just that!

I'm planning for the annual summer holiday. This year, if I get my way, we will be renting a boat, a penichette, and cruise on the canals and rivers of France. I'm not really a boat person but on a river land is close so if anything happens I can swim to shore and safety. Seriously, if they rent it to people who have absolutely no experience it can't be that hard...
There so many parts of France I haven't seen yet. I'd love to see the castles of Loire or enjoy the supposedly amazing food in Burgundy.

Had another good laugh yesterday. I was on my way back from the optician, walking by one of the poshest restaurants in town, all suit-and-tie-business-lunches. I carried 50 tulips wrapped in paper. Just in front of me a woman slips on an icy spot and falls over. Some suit and tie-guys inside the restaurant stopped eating and watched her struggle to get up. I went up to her to try to help her, but the only result was that I slipped and fell too...Tulips flying all over as I landed on top of her. By this time two of the men from inside the restaurant and one waiter comes running out to help us both up. They where smiling, I suppose it must have looked kind of fun. I got up and started picking up my tulips, one of the men helped me. The woman asked if they could get her a cab. The waiter guy, the perfect gentleman said: Of course and escorted us into the restaurant where he offered us a cup of coffee and a chance to warm up. As I was leaving, quite embarrassed, one of the men came running after me with the last tulip that he had found. He said: "Your flower, miss! Wouldn't want you to be without it." And as he turns around to walk back into the restaurant HE slips on the same icy spot. The waiter come running back outside but this guy gets up, quite dignified and says: "May I suggest some sand on that spot."
We all got quite a good laugh out of that :)

Today I'm going to clean my apartment and I have found two jobs I'm going to apply for and then I need to write a marketing plan for My Own Company....

Take care!

Song of the day: Outrageous - Artful Dodger

I-Tunes rocks :)

Got this from Jezz's blogg:

First open Itunes or which ever music program you use then answer honestly:

- How many songs? 720
Then sort by
title:
First song: (Sex) Love Is What We're Makin' - R Kelly
Last song: Your Love Is King - Will Young

length:
Shortest: Bionic Woman (Interlude) - Robyn 0:16
Longest: Purple Rain - Prince 8:40

Album:
First: 3D - TLC
Last: Ultra - Depeche Mode

Artist:
First: 10 cc
Last: Xibit

Five most played:
1. Dirrty - Christina Aguilera (I'm embarrassed)
2. Cry Me a River - Justin Timberlake (WHAT?!?!?!)
3. Alright - John Legend (finally :))
4. La Bomba - Ricky Martin (well, he is hot but still....)
5. Yeah - Usher feat. Lil' John (at least you can dance to it)

Let I-Tunes choose a random song:
Good Riddance (Time of your life) - Green Day (my dignity is saved ;))

Search by:

"sex" found 6 songs
"love" found 33 songs
"death" found 0 songs
"you" found 68 songs
"chewbacca"found 0 songs

Take care
Song of the day: Isn't there Someone - Luther Vandross

A lump in my throat

Have had a lump in my throat all day today. A dear friend of mine lost her mother last night. She wrote the most amazingly beautiful email to all of us. I know she'll be fine, she is a lot stronger than she knows but it's still so sad.

I, on the other hand, made my second modeling appearance today, as a man actually :) It's for a medical magazine - they are going to show how hard it is to tell the difference between women and men. The photographer told me I looked like a gangster rapper. I know he meant it in a good way.
It was really fun! And I made some money which I obviously spent almost immediately (I did mention that I have some shopping issues, didn't I?!?!) on warmer winter boots. Winter is back in Stockholm and with a vengeance...it's absolutely freezing, windy and the snow is now falling sideways. Hate that!

Had lunch with Dr C on Wednesday. We went to this Lebanese restaurant and he got sick as we where leaving... We had a nice time during lunch though and at moments like these I can't imagine being without him...
I hope I won't have to....

Meet the parents...

Spent Friday at Locanda with M. She always calls when she needs something and this time she wanted to know why she and her boyfriend wasn't invited to the birthday party on Saturday night. It's not my party so how would I know. Oscar isn't the most focused person so I think he just sent out some random invitations and hoped world would be passed around. I told her she was most probably welcome to come but they ended up not going...
The restaurant was ok, the service was extremely slow. I mean it is not ok for it to take an hour from finishing the maincourse until asked if we wanted to order dessert... The food was ok but the portions were quite small. They do, however, have a very large selections of drinks so if I go back it'll be for the drinks not the food.

Saturday was Oscars party. It was nice but some of his friends are really strange. They have quite... Liberal opinions about most things and we don't always see eye to eye.
It was cool to see Ylva and Fredrik there, especially since they are about to have another baby. According to the doctor the baby was supposed to come on Saturday...

I left early to go and see Dr C. He was away all day Saturday playing a volleyball game. We spent the evening watching a horrible series, something about a serial killer who killed women by leaving spiders in their beds... Horrible and it gave me nightmares.

Sunday we got up quite late and I was trying to solve a Sudoku, you know one of those puzzles with numbers in them. They are quite addictive :)
So suddenly he tells me that his parents are coming over. They have been to IKEA and are dropping of some stuff. Apparently it was a bit more than that. His brother was turning 30 and his parents were coming over for dinner and birthday cake. If he had told me that I would have left... But no, there I am in the same clothes as the day before, no make up and his mum walks in...I don't think she was very impressed! His parents seems nice though and his brother is really cool. We had dinner, quite awkward I must admit. And then we build a dresser and two bookshelf he bought.
After they left we cleaned the place (or he cleaned and I was working on that d*mn sudoku) and then off to bed.

All and all, the weekend was nice. No Talk but like HappyButterfly said; I'm not sure if I'm ready for the answer. And like they say: If you don't want to know - don't ask :)

I'll just go with the flow and see where it takes me...

Take care!

Song of the day: Can't get you off my mind - Lenny Kravitz

All made up

Went to MAC yesterday for a make up event. It was really nice to meet all of the Beautyqueen again, some old friend and some new ones.
(Beautyqueen VIP is one of the Shortcut best clubs. Have actually met some of my dearest friends through Shortcut).

Anyway, my makeup theme was all about fab glam and color. The make upartist worked with blue, purple and black. I was very happy with the result so I ended up buying most of the eyeshadows she used on me. "If I want it, I need it" ;)

Stepbro's mum got me an Andrea Bocelli cd for Christmas. I don't mind Andrea Bocelli but it's not really my type of music so I changed it yesterday and got Mary J Blige - The Breakthrough instead. It's really great and she is so fab.

This week has been all about work. Met with Peder, my mentor, on Tuesday. I took him out for lunch and he has new great ideas for me that I'm looking into. Then I've spent most of the time around the house writing my business plan and updating my cv. I tend to spend a lot of time on layout and ...less time on contence. Must do something about that....

Wednesday I got a surprise call from a friend I haven't seen in ages. It was an nice surprise so we are going out for dinner tonight. I can't help wondering what she wants. She is the type of person that only calls when she needs something from you. And she is an expert in forgetting favors rendered.....Well, will be interesting too see what's up.
This is part of the reason why we really haven't seen eachother in a while. I got sick of helping her out and never getting anything in return. She and her boyfriend are experts in complaining about what other people do and don't but that they should arrange something or invite people over.... would never happen.
Anyway, we are trying this new restaurant tonight that has gotten great reviews, Locanda. I'll get back to you on the restaurant.
Tomorrow Oscar is having his 35th birthdayparty. So today I must find a nice gift for him. He likes warhistory and fantasybooks. I thought I'd pick up a dvd of a book for him.

Oh, my new lamp is up. After a few attempts I got it up. It's just one small problem. If someone really tall comes over like Dr C, they will hit their head. I can barely walk under the lamp and I'm only 1m69cm.... But I like the lamp and the light in my apartment is som much better than before :)

No Talk updates to report. Haven't seen Dr C this week since we both have been busy in the evenings. But next time I see him I'll get some wine in me to work up a nerve and bring it up.

Ok, better get on with everything now.

Take care

Song of the day: Gonna Breakthrough - Mary J Blige

A Dr C-weekend :)

Spent almost all weekend with Dr C.
Friday me and sis were supposed to got to NK and their annual sale but when we got there and saw the queue going all around the block we decided not to....
Instead we met up with Henrik and went to an art exhibition (Dutch painters)instead and then we had a late lunch with some wine :)
On my way home I rented 2 movies (De-Lovely and Collateral 3,5/5) when Dr C suddenly called. He was back from his skiing and was on his way to pick up some sushi. He asked if I wanted to bring the movies and come over to his place for sushi.
We had a nice time watching Collateral and eating sushi from the place on the corner. Didn't have the nerve to bring up The Talk, maybe I need to drink some wine first ;)

Saturday he had his Portuguese exam so he got up at 7.30 which is crazy in a Saturday. Sent me a textmessage asking if we could have lunch after he was done.
I went home to change clothes and shower and went back into town for lunch. He wanted carpaccio so we went to this Italian place. It was by far the worst food I've ever had!! And to make matters worse the actually charged extra for the clothes check. I really hate when they do that at restaurants. I mean I pay enough for the food and wine and then I have to pay to leave my jacket. AND they don't even give you the choice.... it's mandatory!

After lunch we took a walk around town, I had to pick up some wine for the movienight at Jocke's place. Asked Dr C if he wanted to join us and he said yes. I think he had a nice time.
We went out to Jocke's, he lives quite far from town, and went shopping for food and then back to his place and made dinner. Or I made dinner and the guys watched me....

We watched Sin City (3/5), is was cool but a bit to much violence for me.

On Sunday we got up quite late and made brunch: pancakes, eggs and bacon. And then we watched War of the Worlds (2/5) and Lord of the Rings - The Return of the King (4,5/5) I love that movie! We had a late dinner and then he went home.
I do enjoy being on my own and after a whole weekend with I'm it was actually nice to be left alone. At least for a while now I miss him :)

Today I'm finally putting my new lamp up and the I'm going to write my business plan for My Own Company and then I'm going to clean my apartment. Or at least that is my plan for the day. I'll see how far I'll get :)

"It doesn't matter how big or small you are, what matters is your time and what you make of it"

Take care

Song of the day: If you all get to heaven - Terence Trent D'Arby

Exclusivity

How do you know when you're dating exclusively??

I know for a fact that Dr C is still logging on to the dating website where we met. How do I know? Well, I admit I log on to... but only because I know that he is logging on there. Logical huh?!?!
I check and if he has been online then I think it is ok for me to log on too, that is if he has been online.
I wonder if he is looking for someone else. I know for a fact that he was online today AND he is away skiing in his parents house in the mountains. So, do they have internet access in the house or did he go out of his way to find it??? If he went out of his way exactly why?? Maybe I should just end it here and now so he won't hurt me that bad. I would so miss him if we stopped seeing eachother but I do not want to hear the words "I have found someone else..." I miss him now and he is just away skiing with is family...

I suppose we should have The Talk. My best friend Carl, who is from the US, always tells me about The Talk: it's apparently after the 5th date ( that we passed months ago) you should talk about the future of the relationship and decide if you should be exclusive or date others.
We have not had The Talk yet, wonder if we ever will. We do, however, have sleepovers at least twice a week. He has met most of my friends and my parents. At New Years he was at another party but came over to our party at 4 o'clock in the morning and then we spent the night at my parents place. He stayed on the next day and helped us clean up the place.

A thought just struck me: maybe he is checking the website to see if I still log on... Just takes a little work and you can check without actually having to log on.

Shit, I supposed I need to bring this up but I don't know how, where and when. The best way might be over dinner after some wine at my place so if he dumps me I won't need to get on the subway home.
Oh yes, I love exploring the more paranoid side of myself.

Well, if dumps me I will always remember him fondly *not*

Take care

Song of the day: Hung Up - Madonna

Paris...

I knew it. I should be in Paris :)

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris. The art, the fashion, the wine, the men! Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park... You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

What City Do You Belong In?

A pleasant start

of 2006. The party on New years was great! We got started with all the shopping around lunch. Then back to my parents place to cook. I got out of the shower at 7.45 pm and the first guests arrived at 8. The food was very nice. We had two different smoked salmon sandwiched, two pie (minced meat and vegetables) and mushroomsoup. And also ton and tons of booze ;) After all the theme was "Cocktails"...
And midnight we went outside to check out the fireworks and then we walzed, it's a silly tradition we have. I really don't know how it started but we always walz just after midnight on New years...
Dr C arrive at 4 am when most people already left but he and I stayed up till 5 and then we went to bed too. He helped clean the house the next day - so now he has met my parents for real.

Later sis, Dr C, myself and 2 other friends went to the movies and saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. I'd give it a 3/5. Spent the night at Dr C's place. I like him :)

Today I've done everything but the one thing I should do... I've rearranged my closet, cleaned the kitchen and some laundry so tomorrow there are no excuses. I have to start writing a proposal for a fashion show and seriously look for a new part time job. I'm thinking about waitressing again. The downside with the restaurant business is the workhours... mostly at night. But it's fun... well I'll think about it.

One cool thing is that I've sent my first invoice :) Should have the money by the end of this week.
I've mailed Peder, my mentor, and invited him for lunch on me as a thank you for all his help.

Saturday we are having a movienight at Jocke's place. Could be fun, he has apparently a whole bunch of new dvds that I haven't seen.

So, tomorrow I'll be the focused business woman I have to be. Or at least I'll try. "Fake it 'till you make it"

Take care!

Song of the day: Te amo, corazon - Prince